Jiyu ippon kumite
My floppy mood has given way to a foul mood. E is having some difficulty walking, what with the two or three new ones I ripped for him earlier today.
We've been sparring like karate black belts since we woke up, about everything and nothing. About booking flights to London in June. About the painting we saw in a gallery yesterday, which I fell hopelessly in love with, but which he would not let me buy, because it was too expensive. About that old perennial favourite- his pathological inability to put the dishes in the dishwasher and my obsessive need to snipe about it.
The cause of all these hostile emotions on my end is, I suspect, simply hormones. I seem to be experiencing a particularly bad pre-menstual heady brew, making it hard for me to think or behave sensibly. Mix this with a dash of the normal frustrations of life, and the result is a growling, crabby Mare. Just half an hour ago, I nearly ripped the door off the washing machine, so enraged was I that it failed to open properly on demand.
"I hope you're not like this when you're taking the drugs, " E. muttered.
"I expect it will be much worse," I snapped, "so brace yourself."
"Maybe it won't be so bad," E. said cheerily, "maybe you'll find you actually feel better!"
I gawped at him, then burst out laughing at this absurd notion. Then when I stopped laughing, I beat him about the head with the arm I ripped off his body. Still, you have to admire such blind, persistant optimisim.
Speaking of hormones, there has been one potentially bright spot in the doom and gloom of the impending IVF cycle. My FSH levels had not been checked since the first round of tests over a year ago- consequently I had been asked to have a new Day 3 blood draw. The good news is that it has not gone up, and in fact came back at 7.2- lower than last year's 8.4. I'm not going to get too hung up on the numbers- there are a zillion and one other things to conspire to fuck it up- but at least it's not presently indicating elevation into the worrying zone.
Hurrah for small comforts.
