Thar she blows

Thank you all so much for your gratifying interest in my cool bag. As it happens I did stash the drugs in there with a cold bottle of water, because despite what La Nurse said, I couldn't quite see that it was a good idea to have medication baking in the heat. And I may yet have some use for the bag, especially when I start stimming- since there will no doubt be some back and forthing beween home and the flat in the OC.

I confess the first place I went to, I asked for a cooler bag, since that was what I would have called it, had I been in my native land. But the first befuddled look of the day reminded me that in fact, things are ever so slightly different here.

"Oh," she said, "you mean a cooool bag."

You see? It's all in the inflection. Had I wanted a pretty purse, I would have gone searching for a cool baaaaaag. You say tomato, I say tomahto.

But enough of that. Let's talk about Synarel, my delightful new nasal spray. I take this at 8am and 8pm, one snort in each nostril. First step, take off the little safety clip which keeps it from spraying everywhere accidentally. Second step, take off the cap. I should point out that it really, really helps to take the cap off before spraying- not too effective otherwise. As I discovered this morning when I, er, forgot. Ironic, given that I am notorious for forgetting to put the cap back on things, much to E.'s considerable chagrin.

Engage in some vigorous nostril snuffling to clear the airways. It is good that E. has not here to witness this, because my nasal activities (sneezing, blowing nose) annoy him at the best of times.

Tilt head down. Stick the tip of the bottle in nose- to the side and back is best, apparently. Block off opposite nostril with firm finger to the side of the nose. Pump the spray with thumb and forefingers while inhaling.

I worried the first time I did it that in the excitement of pumping, I would accidentally blow out instead of in. Because I am a goober like that. So my new little ritual goes like this- insert tip, block, breathe in, out, and IN/PUMPSPRAY. It works a treat, and makes me feel rather Zen to boot.

Then I tilt my head back for about 20 seconds to keep everything from dribbling out. It's a little disconcerting if you don't immediately "feel" anything. The first time I did it, I had an almost immediate burning acrid sensation at the back of my throat. But tonight, nothing- at least not right away. I worried initially that I had not administered a proper spray somehow. I gave it a minute, and pretty soon that nasty reassuring aftertaste filled my mouth and throat. Yummy.

So far, so good. Moodwise, I am curiously upbeat at the moment. It feels like a tremendous relief to be doing something at last, after the interminable waiting. But something tells me it won't last, if nothing else because I have been warned that Synarel may cause "mood swings". Why do I suspect that to be a big understatement? E and I spend a lot of time surfing the tide of my moods at the best of times, so we're both a little wary of what lies ahead.

And there are certain other events conspiring to wreak chaos and havoc. For example, would you say that in the middle of an IVF cycle is a good time to be selling the flat in the OC and moving house? Any sane person would surely be shaking their head and saying, "Fuck, no! Are you out of your tiny minds?". Well, one of us is (not me, did you guess?) because that is precisely what is happening.

More on that development later. For now, I am humming a little happy tune, while scanning the horizon for the brewing storm.

Comments

[Pamplemousse]

I really don't notice much about moodswings, this time or last. I did have some quiet crying every night for a while and I feel a bit down on it too. I have been craving sugar this week.

The one thing that freaked me out was the fact that I still feel my ovaries twinging. This happened last time and I was convinced I would not be suppressed at baseline. Howeer, my fears were groundless.

It is good to be finally doing something when you have waited forever to start.

[Pamplemousse]

Oh, and I just have to say that I do it at 8 o'clock too! I will be thinking of you-hoo as I sniffle!!

[Jen]

No storms, sweetie--just good times ahead (we hope!).

And um, what was E thinking with the move? Men!

[Amanda]

Doing something is good. There's something to be said for having a major distraction during a cycle, too. Good luck!

[Suz]

Moving and IVF certainly do not go together....but I have to admit that George has the habit of starting LARGE home improvement projects at the beginning of cycles. Somehow, he seems that it keeps his mind off of "things." Me, I know better.

[PJ]

Stimming and moving cannot be a good combination, you poor dear.

Ewww, I can't believe you have to *taste* it. I guess it's better than injecting it, right?

[OvaGirl]

Yes, it's great to be started and to feel proactive. I don't get started till mid way through next month and much as I'm trying not to, I'm feeling excited.
I think enjoy that happy tune and make it last as long as possible.In fact...why not a whole Happy Tune Ring Cycle...

[Mellie]

Glad that you've got the snorting thing down! I'm excited for you to be starting a new cycle. And coincidentally enough, I was thinking of writing today about whether or not the stress of moving will interfere with a cycle. I got to say, this past week, I've been so worried about apartment stuff I haven't really had time to mope and worry about ttc stuff - so in that case it's a blessing!

[J]

I am so thrilled, after all the waiting that you've endured, that you've gotten started at last! I'm hoping you have placid sailing all the way through (the move notwithstanding)!

[Amocca]

hahahaha mood swings? what an understatement. I became the wicked witch of the north (due to my geographical location)... Crying or bitching at everyone and everything. ALMOST (almost) made my husband sell the car as I got horribly annoyed with it *oops* Had a mental breakdown in the supermarket. Kicking the shopping cart and crying mercilessly over a shelf of knitted sweaters... very NOT cool!

[Emily]

Don't worry about the meds causing mood swings, the moving should do that for you just fine, without or without IVF. We thought about buying another house and then I looked around at everything I would have to pack and decided, "It's not so bad here." Gah, I hate moving.

Thinking of you my dear.

[Cara Fletcher]

This mood swings from the medication don't help you alot but I'm sure you can control them somehow.Good luck :)